So a little while back I was told I should go see a counselor (by a kind of medium, but still) because I keep too many things in my head.. that I don’t share with anyone so it’s just stuck in my head.
The ‘things’ I keep jammed in a tiny little box up in my head surprisingly don’t bother me most of the time.. I go around day to day just happily gwaning along (going about my business) the little box stays locked and buried, but on the rare occasion that the ‘box’ does seemed to be opened the feelings overwhelm me… I instantly feel dragged down by the stupid thoughts I try to keep hidden.
I always go back to thinking ‘do I need to see someone about these thoughts’ don’t get me wrong I don’t think about doing anything stupid or hurting myself.. i just feel down… But the issue I have is I really can’t talk about these thoughts from my ‘box’ I can barely even think about them let alone write them down or speak about them.. it’s like a sort of denial of the things I think.. like it if I don’t share them they will just go away..
Pfft.